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if one day i really go in. don't feel sad for me. i won't be whining cause i will just take it as a lesson. this is the road i choose & its just parts and parcel of my life =) cheers

24!

few more hours and i have to book in le. damn sian & shag. this book out did'nt do much. went find fai at yishun den went home when i book out. gt 1 fren win 1K+ lol den i tell him don't worry tml sure toh one lol next day really from 2k+ credit become 700 hahaha joke. this week transaction not bad but till now still considering if to go over wc & jx side. they giving me win 20% lose 10% benifit. its a pretty good deal but its really hard to find leg these days. basically this book out just went pool, arcade and lan lol boring lifestyle haha. these few days keep raining damn sian! my mood will automatically change one lol i hate rainy days. Rach jie got friend working at dfs 20% off lol damn cool haha but her friend work till may only so must try to get everything by may den wu hua lols. today 24 le. jeff going in today 5 years from now. so zhun somemore 24 24 24! this sat booking out already =) last book out for deployment as i'm going back camp next week already.

one false move you took me home, one false move you're all alone - a7x Atreyu Ex'es & Oh's

18 Feb '09

yesterday went out with steph & ham bao again but this time xiang teck heng and jas tag along. went to catch a movie at 6.30 lol end at 9.30 quite a long show but to me i think its worth it ba though abit draggy. the show is called benjamin button. i don't like the ending as i'm de kind of person who prefers happy ending. went home took half a bottle of it to numb myself. its been so long. sorry guys yesterday was so lost i'm being own by my emotions and feeling. if i know it will be like this i will take a bottle before i meet up. same drowziness and i'm like being stuck in a genjutsu lol. after tat ko liao all de way le. sorry ah phiang yesterday was suppose to meet u for supper de =l today booking in le. btw my m1 line people call till 300+ now wan me 'eat dead cat' ci si mao. dumb that person is really dumb i can't believe it. i called m1 to send me the list of dial number le. later go back be jin tian yi liao. hope can find out soon if not need to pay around $400 like tat. recently found tat i made alot of changes lol usually lazy but i've been spending those precious time gyming. soccer & casino but i never touch de account for 3 damn months already cos i promise myself not to bet ANYMORE! every book out go drink but now sheldom even go already i've break de 'gong tao' curse le hahaha no more thai disco please! planning to quit smoking in about 1 & half months time. this is the biggest challenge to me. from 3-5 meals a day during deployment but now 1 meal only haha this is the biggest changes i've ever made lol i used to eat what i want but now i'm going all out to shed that 10 kg of oil in me. alot of sacrifices need to be made but this kind of sacrifice is definetly worth it =D sian now alot of runner liao donno wan to chiong casino anot lol need alot of hard cash to do that. soccer now i think got more runner than punters damn joke even wc and jx oso into it now. give me a $100000 turnover and i will quit lo haha these can't go on forever and i'm very sure about it. yawn 2 more hours and i'll be in camp sian think go take my one and only meal for today ba. blog again when book out.

i'm lucky i'm in love with my best friend Lucky to have been to where i have been Lucky to be coming home again - jason mraz Lucky

Whiner!

recenly i've been thinking too much i guess. my white hair growing more and more. damn i'm just 19. its been so annoying i don't know why. jealousy is pawning me way too much. i should'nt have started it. khun jin jin mai mee kit theung chun mai? so annoying yet funny lol i donno how i shall put it. book out time is so limited. 10 more months to ORD. training schedule is out already damn shag, sad & sian. march got field camp april icsb 32km march, river crossing, platoon attack + defend field camp. Damn the MG shellscrape! May taiwan starlight excercise. damn it so harsh lo i can't even imagine how am i going to complete de 32km. de last 24km nearly took my life already. well screw army life lol. btw sophiang finding buyer for her gucci card holder. its more for female and i forget the price already! oops! its a new design which SG haven't start selling yet so if any of you interested please let me know. i shall get the picture of it and de price from her asap. & thanks ah piang for de 7% haha since she got friend working at dfs i ask her to help me get the bag which i wanted but still it cost a bomb! last week nearly everynight sleep with an empty stomach haha can't belive i'm on diet. now i finally understand why girl goes on diet for so long just for de damn tummy. its sucks to the core! gym 4 times a week now hope to get the body i desire for lol weird thing is that i can only do extra sets only when i'm lonely or sad. next booking can start on my last twilight saga, breaking dawn le so excited haha heard from my fren Bella change into vampy in the beginning ler. alright shall end here lo tml have to wake up early. btw those who understand thai please keep it to yourself! thanks =) good night creeps

i can only be with you, dtae tern fan.

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just read some post from my friend's blog. wonder if i'm doing the right thing now or am i being a barstard for some reason. somehow i feel real bad about it. you know things don't always goes the way u want it to be! anyhow, i did feel bad about it but you can't blame me for everything. its not my fault to fall in - whatever it is, i'm gonna hold on.

dear god the only thing i ask for is to hold her when i'm not around when i'm much too far away.

11 feb 09 ` thanks for the day!

so fast! just 1 more hour and i'm booking in again hahaha i suffered through de 9 days in camp lol to be exact 4 days in camp 5 days in sembawang wharves deployment again. birthday nothing much as usual kana tou pok all thanks to Alan koh lol tie my boot lace to de bed den khai spank me and jerrald kanaji till song song nb si bai ka ... finish reading new moon and tuesday with morrie gonna start my eclipse today le. tuesday night book out went to meet fai as need to settle this and that after tat ah tuk came den go eat at balestier liao tio scam to icon bar hahaha so damn long never go thai disco liao find it getting more and more boring. went back at 2+ den donno why cannot sleep! lol den bo bian maple all the way till morning. woke yong de at 10 den go bath liao went to boon keng mrt meet stephanie and ham bao. train down to harbour front den went to eat de chicken rice store beside food court. after tat went to take cable car. reach sentosa le den went siloso to de underwater world haha not much changes. after tat went to dolphin lagoon. find it quite amazing wonder how they communicate with dolphins lol thought only dog will be so obedient. after dolphin liao went to de theatre for de 3d thing one lol shake here shake der till i seh seh! den end of sentosa tour haha till now haven't went to de butterfly and insect kingdom before. when we where heading back to de cable car place it started to drizzle abit. guess de weather not playing its part lol before tat was so damn hot till i nearly peng san lo. went back vivo ler went to eat at marche. till now i only like the potato thingy with sausage one. de chicken fillet & steak donno why still suck for some reason hahaha! after tat went to parkway as yong de need to close store thanks to my lazy mum lol. went to pool when we reach der den after tat went home as he need to put tat gay bag at home 1st. steph give me a pressy when i was at home while ham bao gave yong de ... thanks alot (= think i won't be using it ba hahaha! after yong de & me bath liao went over to leisure park. so long never go there lo still remember when i was still in my pri sch my mum & aunt always bring me der de when we still live in tanjong rhu. more than 10 years liao. went kbox sing & drink lol ah siao open 1 bottle. the chivas taste damn bad. wonder how long they keep it already lo de taste already change liao le & i shiver through the whole 4 hours! so damn cold lol. after tat we went back home le as it was already 3am liao. 1st time go out for whole day man haha i mean like everything went on smoothly according to plan. only thing we missed out is movie. thanks for the day girls! wonder when will we be meeting up again le. it's a really memorable day, to me. though its supposedly a belated birthday celebration but i took it as an advance valentine's too hahaha 2 in 1 lol. thanks for everything steph & ham bao! arigato kozaimaz!