Low Low Low

too much for me this week =) i've been keeping my cool till i blasted it off on fri evening. shag! just came back from guard duty. having flu & cough now lol think even if i take medicine also won't get to any help. been very down recently too much for me to take it. booking in on 10pm tonight. last week overspent too much already. 1 bottle of liqour + $100 lose to edmond + this and that around 500+ somemore on monday something cock up need to fork out money instead of taking money. crap totally. outstanding at least $700 wtf! i think for 1 or 2 more transact i'm out off it already. i want to turn over a new leaf =D quit smoking quit drinking quit gambling quit numbing quit quit quit all the Bad stuff! think my brain is not functioning well at this point. i go get some rest better.

14 March 8 more months to GO!

yst slept till 5pm den wake up. Sian 1/2! woke up so late waste half my day le =l went dinner with fred and siong den met up wif lun and sop as they say wan go lan awhile so went parklane after tat. edmond and jie came to join us too. lols was buzy searching my int EQs for my bishop. level so high but noob eqs. after that went to arcade. YES! i completed with just $2 only hahaha finally. went to pool awhile den after tat meet ah bee at boat quay as he jio us go. totally boring man PUB. the era of pubbing is gone but to me Pubbing, Thai Discos & Clubbing is all gone! unless its some kinda special event if not don't bother asking me to go this kinda place anymore. i spent all of my last year pay on these already & i don't want history to repeat itself hahaha. went lor 3 eat kapo gong ba tianji+spicy. damn kick man edmond and fai scratch their head like monkey fred cry like as though i pass away & i sweat like hell! after tat sat there cool down haha buay tahan den edm say wad he can use 'har ma gong' liao den i say 'har ma gong' is 'qi gong' & de only way to counter it is 'yi yang chi' as it is 'nei gong' den he ask me wad 'gong' to counter 'nei gong' so i start to think den he say 'lin ah gong' which make us all blast into laughter & imagine with frederick there ... godly laugh there all the way till wan vomit and sibei chuan lol ge kiang go add spicy. after tat walk back home talk crap all de way den they came my hs. all sleep left edmond and me. watch dou ni yao bu yao all de way hahaha i'm addicted to drama again lol the last one i watch is hot shot! tonight booking in again lo sad this coming week tuesday live firing den thursday 16km route march! SONG BO? i'm not mentally prepared yet =l recently just realise my wallet the leather abit crampled like tat heart pain lo tat time fly into drain zzz think next week can get belt le but must see if jie fren is free cos i want the 20% OFF! the bag i get at paragon as dfs don't have de colour i want damn only got blue pink and brown dumb! chatted with mum just now when i cooking noodle lol he got some arguement with yong de because of his GF! damn lame sia lim lao bu go set wad rule for him say must stead 6months den can bring her come back hahahaha den my father say want go make 1 gold plated medal for him with carving 'Qing Shou' LOL lim pei also know how to joke hor HAHAHAHA lame. wad a crazy family i have so don't blame me for wad i am =D btw phiang when u want send me the pic!!!

a lonely road cross another cold state line, miles away from those i love purpose hard to find.

Fri 13!

i completed my navigation without falling out! woot soilder boy hahaha 1st check point already go HOLLAND stuck in jungle for about 4 hours. best part within 5mins of bashing in to de forest got a somewhat stream inbetween so my sect mates walk by de log slowly den i buay tahan so i just step in thought only water JOKE de mud donno made of wad i sink till my knee level! song bo 10 mins of navigation i gone crazy already after tat i don't give a fk damn already just walk for de sake of walking. overall i learn something which is so much more expensive den anything else in the world. bond. yea the bond they have in their section i just can't bear to fall out half way through. i must uphold my appointment as a MG gunner! chiong AR this year requirement for me to ORD - ippt GOLD soc 9.30mins CSB 32km Taiwan ROC & ATEC. muahahaha i'm gonna clear all this by july and i'm a free man. can't bear to leave my brothers though i really wan to get out of army =l

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sometime its better to let go than holding on. Not being good enough for a person is just an excuse. they're with you for a reason. If you can't love yourself, your partner will not love you.

its painfull, heartbreaking to let go but what for holding on if its already so ~

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so bored at home now. tonight booking in lo sian this thursday navigation! omg. its been so long hahaha. last evening meet up with edmond fred den guo rong drive us to cini. meet up wif steph bao & jas den went to catch 12.50 watchman. the show not bad ba LOL cos i slept through it from the start hahaha the part where i last saw the smiley face. today woke up heard from yong de he broke up with his gf. dumb i don't know wth his thinking. his gf already gave in already i mean like let him be wad he use to be. think his with mint already. from now till june de schedule damn pack lol better be mentally prepared haha. hope can be like last time i've been living aimlessly for quite sometime already zhou yi bu xuan yi bu. hope next book out won't be like this ba. now i realise something which money cannot buy already. true happiness! pawns me far too godly GG. tat's all for now ba blog again when i book out.

something is not meant to be explain, cause it may sound more like an excuse.